超准的星座分析！！！

Did an analysis of my horoscope through Facebook apps. When I read the analysis, felt like I was being looked through totally... Although there are some statements which I don't wish to admit, but they are the truths...

【给 DeeJay 的一封信】

你有大地的特質，承擔一切，喜歡保護弱小，
擅長照顧別人。
簡直到了犧牲奉獻的地步。尤其對於情人的要求，
會放在第一位。甚至不等對方開口，都能察覺對方心意事先為對方準備好。
你的心很軟，很敏感。會因為悲劇的情節或他人的不幸而流淚。

（超准的！看到别人无助时，我总想要去帮忙。我也认识一个金牛座的朋友，也是特别保护和照顾别人的。她看到朋友被欺负，一定会拔刀相助！
我的心确实是很软，很容易被别人说服。。。就算不是我喜欢做的东西，也很容易“被骗”去做。。。看戏时真的会哭。。。
会把别人放在第一位，但至于不等对方开口也能察觉对方的心意，就得加强了。我对别人的心事还没那么敏感。可是我那位金牛座的朋友就真的很厉害！她看你的表情和动作就可以猜到你在想什么了！）

你：
特悶騷，特害羞，特膽小，沒安全感，佔有欲強，
控制欲強，容易胡思亂想，多疑，極敏感，嫉妒心強，
容易吃醋，忽冷忽熱，忽遠忽近，愛顧影自憐，
雙重性格，嚴重精神分裂，特大號神經病。

（占有欲强 - 还蛮强的。。。买东西时，第一次选到的，我就会对它很loyal的，总觉得它比其他柜子上同样的产品更特别，因为是我第一次选到的，算是缘分。就算有小缺陷，都不舍得换另外一个。
容易胡思乱想 - 是真的。。。如果你进入我的脑海里，你可以看到我平时的想象力是多么的random！一下子想这个，隔不久又想另外一个根本不想干的事情！
妒嫉心强，容易吃醋 - 是有点啦~~ XP 不过已经改了很多！以前更严重！！
忽冷忽热，忽远忽近 - 这要看人。对情投意合的，一见到面，热情到吓到对方！XD 可是若不熟，或直觉中有点排斥的人，就会这样。
双重性格，严重精神分裂，特大号神经病 - 这。。。哈哈！只有跟我超级熟，和我原意向他展现我那疯狂的那一面的人才知道了~~ ;p）

你的愛情，講究一步一個腳印，
而不是敗絮其中的徒有外表。
你一旦愛上了，就一頭扎進去。
你會從細節入口，
一寸寸的呵護這份緣妙不可言的愛情。
你對待愛情的這股認真勁兒，即使沒有甜言蜜語，
卻實實在在做著牽手到永遠的努力，
你給予的愛情你傷不起。

（虽然没谈过恋爱，但感觉真的是会这样，因为我喜欢按部就班地，慢慢了解对方。跟朋友也是这样。:) 而且我对付诸感情的东西都很忠诚的。。。就如我的soft toys，被单，钱包，手机，电脑等等所有其他我拥有的东西。）

你脾氣很倔，如果有天真的把你惹怒了，
絕對敢和你同歸於盡。讓你消氣很容易，
不管是你男還是你女，也不管對異性或者同性，
只要你撒撒嬌說兩句軟話，包准你不會再有脾氣。
但如果是欺騙你，那你要做好被傷心的準備吧!
你的世界對欺騙者可是很無情的哦。
（脾气真的是很倔。。。别人越说不应该做，我偏要去做。。。
但真的没那么容易生气啦！让我消气也是超级容易的！有时候，时间的洗涤也能让我消气了。:)
至于欺骗呢。。。就算被骗，我也可能到最后也没察觉到，因为实在是太不懂得分析人了。。。）

不善改變，你喜歡的就一直喜歡；
你不喜歡的就永遠都不會喜歡。

（对！）

你可以為朋友兩肋插刀，可以做任何事。
（是的！总觉得义气很重要！！！就算自己已忙得自身难保了，还是把别人排第一，自己的事再挤一挤时间，就可以了。也是这样的我，所以经常被妈妈骂。。。@.@ ）

但你討厭被別人利用，所以如果你想與你交朋友就不要利用你。
如果你知道了，雖然嘴上不說但是心裡會開始慢慢討厭你。

（通过这个分析我才知道，为什么我对某人有排斥。。。虽然我们经常在一起，但总觉得不能把自己的心打开，与她谈任何事情。。。反而跟她身旁的人，虽然相处的时间不比她多，却能很开心地交谈。。。原来是这个原因。。。）

你生性渴望理解，卻不奢求理解安於孤獨。
你的優勢在於，對於別有用心的人能夠一眼看穿，
並完全做到視若無睹。
（我是好奇宝宝，看到神奇的事，都要去看个究竟。XD 但不喜欢gossip 别人。XD 自己独处也可以很开心。就算参加某些活动，只有自己一个，其他人都有伴，谈得不亦乐乎，我也能很安乐地在一旁。:)
别有用心的人，是不能够一眼看穿。可是，我的直觉总是很准的。。。初次遇到某人，直觉能告诉我能否与他亲近。而通常潜意识里排斥的人，经过时间观察，也证实他别有用心。。。可能是因为自己思想很直接，没有别有用心[对不起，这句有点自恋 XD]，所以对那种人就自然有排斥，而对同类的人，能直接感觉出来。 ）

也許當自鳴得意時你想的正是不和這頭牲口一般見識！
看你就是這樣的心態清高地忍，
讓憂鬱地承受卻酷得乾脆利落，只要不觸動你的底線一切都好。
（对啊！我对那人是一忍再忍啊。。。虽然她说话不怎么客气，也很伤害人，但这是她平时说话的方式，可能她只是随口说出，并没真正有那想法。。。很想提醒她很久了，但还没做到。不知道其他人是不是跟我有同样的想法。。。有时候觉得她说话挺伤人的，还在很多人面前亏损某人。。。有时是笑话，但她的笑话感觉不像幽默那种。。。知道她不是故意的，但如果一个人每次都这样，表示她本人的内心想法就真的已经是这样了，只是她自己没察觉。。。）

一向以守財奴出名的你，
面對自己重視的人卻可以非常的大方。
對你而言，一些不必要的花費是可以省下來的。
(Hee...守财奴形容得很贴切。XD 哈哈！但下一句是真的！吝色，只是对于我自己； 而对重视的人，是很大方的。:) )

但若遇到重要時刻，你可是花大錢絕不手軟，
對情人更是大方。
對你來說花多少錢在情人身上，
是表現愛意的最好方式。只要覺得有價值，
你是不會捨不得的。
（看到自己超超超喜欢的东西，不管多少钱也会狠心买下。必须注意：一定要是超超超喜欢的才会这样哦！
至于情人嘛。。还不知道！XP 但我不会以多少钱来衡量爱情的深度。该花的我会花。例如：特别日子时，会花钱准备一些礼物。我喜欢手工，所以可能会花钱买材料，手工的材料都很贵耶！可是如果要我买贵重又没什么意义的东西来送，我是不会那样做的。）

以上是DeeJay的个人分析。
原来我是这种人。。。XD
要测试的人可以按下面的link:
http://goo.gl/W7uVu

Introvert ------> Extravert ??

I have really changed A LOT...

When I was in secondary school or matriculation or the first year in USM, although I enjoyed interacting with my friends, but most of the time, I enjoyed being alone. I was motivated by my inner strength every time I faced any hardships.

But in the second year of uni life, I feel like I have become different. When the hardships become unbearable, I find myself wanting to find someone to spill them out. Or even though I don't tell somebody about my problems, being around with people when I am down is enough to change my mood. Is it because I have made more friends? Or is it because the hardships that I've faced have come to a point that I can't bear them alone? Or is it because I have become more dependent on other people? Or is it because my socialising skills are improving and I like to talk to people more?

Quoted from Wikipedia:

• Extraverts are action oriented, while introverts are thought oriented.
• Extraverts seek breadth of knowledge and influence, while introverts seek depth of knowledge and influence.
• Extraverts often prefer more frequent interaction, while introverts prefer more substantial interaction.
• Extraverts recharge and get their energy from spending time with people, while introverts recharge and get their energy from spending time alone.

I think that lately I have become an extravert...

People do change after all。。。

爱你所选，选你所爱

这句经典之话从中学开始就已成了我的座右铭。

如果说，中学是让我体会到 “选你所爱” 的快乐，那么大学就是让我体会到 “爱你所选” 的辛苦了。

两者有什么分别呢？对我而言：
“选你所爱” 是你打从一开始，就选择了你所爱的，那自然而然，你就能做到 “爱你所选” 了；
“爱你所选” 呢，表示那件事可能不是你的选择，但你有责任去完成它，所以必须培养自己对那件事的热忱。

中学时，（你可以说我很幸福）我无论在学业或活动上都没遇过太大的挫折，因为我对我作的所有事都存有热忱。（我是真的对学业和所参加的活动都有浓厚的热忱和兴趣！）无论多大的困难，可能对别人是很难，但我都能跨过去，而且陶醉其中，做得不亦乐乎，就只因为有了那股热忱！那时的我，感觉生活没什么低潮。在任何面试时，我最怕的问题便是：“你曾经遇到过什么挫折？你是怎样解决的？” 这真的是我最怕的！虽然说办活动一定会遇到困难，但对我而言，那困难并没有那么困难。。。 所以，自然而然的，那些困难就没有在我脑海里留下深刻的印象，面试时就说不出答案了。

大学了。。。第一年还好，我都坚持选择我所爱的活动来参加。第二年。。。真的让我体会了好多！！！拿下了性质不太适合自己的责任，从一开始的心理挣扎，到崩溃，到收到鼓励，到慢慢适应，到最后的开始慢慢爱上我所选的。。。漫长的一段路，学到了好多，认识了好多人，自己也变了好多。变更有自信，更健谈，更成熟，更有思维能力。。。我终于尝到了（对我而言）真正的困难，也慢慢跨过去了。陷入了一生第一次的超低潮后，现在感觉到自己的快乐指数正往上爬时，真的非常高兴，也觉得生活变得很充实。

原来这句座右铭，不是表面的那么简单。。。我用了将近8年，才真正地体会到它是多么地难达到！不错，有涵义的座右铭正适合我这样有涵养的人！XP LOL，自high！

DeeJay 突破了自己！！！
鼓掌鼓掌！！

;P

发现成熟的自己

* 摘自《红蕃茄》第163期（2012年11月9日至11月15日）

每个人都要慢慢学着长大。在人生的道上一步一个脚印，或深或浅记录着芸芸众生成长的深度。

成长越慢的人往往受的伤就会越多，面对种种伤痕我们要做的不仅仅是承受，更多的是要感恩。

人的一生中会经历许多不同的人与事，看不同的风景。问题是，有多少人真正从岁月中成长？有什么迹象证明一个人已渐渐成熟？如果阁下有以下15个迹象，证明你一生走来，确实学会了人生的智慧。

1。当你发现自己不再盲目地喜欢跟风似的和一群人混在一起，开始尊重自己的意愿做自己需要做的事情，开始安排自己的种种计划，规划自己的方向，自己的独处也变得充满意义。

2。当你面对很多选择时，不再犹豫不定，脑中会很快地闪过三个以上选择某种选项的必要原因。有了自己独立的思想，开始学着镇定理性地思考问题。

3。当你开始觉得时间明显的不够用，渐渐地觉得睡懒觉，逛街等是相当浪费时间金钱的事情，思想与行动上的时间大概达成了一致，合理地安排时间，充实的生活会把自己带入一个更喜欢的世界。

4。当你在上网或阅读时，会把重点从一味的关注娱乐杂谈转移到新闻国事，经济发展趋势的版图，娱乐杂谈永远是用来开怀大笑的，而新闻国事则是提高个人认知程度，关心国家发展以及爱国的表现，开放的心灵开放的国度，互通有无，共同进步，闭关锁国万万不得已，经济发展趋势往往会影响人们囊中银子的分量。

5。当你在饮食习惯上越来越重视食物的质量，养生之道的念头闯入脑海，学着坚持吃早餐，每天坚持锻炼身体。俗话说得好，留得青山在，不怕没柴烧。这个道理无人不知晓吧。

6。当你再次被人问到爱情、友情、亲情三者的分量时，首先想到的应该是家中的妈妈，血浓于水是千古不变的真理。

7。当你再遇到不顺心的事情时不再是用苦闹来解决问题，眼泪能冲刷得永远是面容，能改变现况的只有行动。

8。重视自己的朋友，爱人。因为这些人不是总会存在你的生命中的，也许在不经意间就物是人非了。在他们面前你无需作假，天真无邪的自己在这个大千世界里是为他们上演的。切记不要忘了真诚。

9。让自己快乐，让周围的人快乐，绝对比金钱有价值。

10。在面对得与失，去与留的问题上，大度与开怀会让复杂的事情变得简单，简单的事情变得富有意义。

11。任何时候不要与老人与小孩子计较，生命的开始是无知的，生命的完结应该快乐的。

12。学着尊重每个人每个生物，就如向日葵喜欢面对太阳才会微笑。

13。心态，健全平和的心态是始终贯穿成功之路的筹码。正确地树立前进的目标，让生活目标而不是在沉重氛围地度过，记住，任何时候都不要把自己搞得太累，生活的价值就完全失去了。

14。自信地生活，开心地笑，成功与快乐并驾齐驱。不以物喜，不以己悲。

15。淡忘仇恨，春暖花开。心有多大，舞台就有多大。

Greens are the ones that DeeJay has done, is doing, and will continue to do in the future.

Reds are the ones that DeeJay still fails in achieving and will strive to achieve them in the future.

Being a bad person...

You know how people always dislike the top management?

Well, holding a high post in a society not only made me realise that, but also let me feel it...

Sometimes, I feel like I have became a bad person, or someone who throws the wet blanket... But if I didn't do what I was supposed to do, if anything bad happens, it'll be even worse...

So? It's quite an experience to know what it feels like to be a bad person... 

But still, sometimes I'll feel heart-broken by the words I heard...

It's really a great experience, joining this society. I've seen more things and become mature in my thinking.

But one year is enough...

Next year, I'm not going to join anymore...

I want to spread my wings and fly freely, to be able to do things that I enjoy~~

DeeJay will contribute her best to the society she joined, 

and looks forward to the day of FREEDOM......

Learning Martial Art for Revenge!!!

*HAAAAAA~~~~*

LOL, of course I'm not proposing violence! I'm going to share a short story I read from a book called <<小故事，大道理>>。(Note to myself: Next time must definitely borrow this book and read all the stories inside it!) There are many touching stories, and what's more, they are all very short! :D Not even one page!

Ok, here goes the story.

There are three people visiting a Shaolin temple to learn martial art. The monk asks each of them why they want to learn martial art.
The first one replies, "My body is very weak. I want to learn martial art so that I can become stronger."
The second one replies, "I am too fat. I want to learn martial art so that I can become thinner."
The third one replies, "There are a gang of bandits in my village who have killed my parents and many people in my village. I want to learn martial art so that I can take revenge."
Guess who becomes the most skillful among the three? Of course it is the third one!


Moral of the story: To achieve something, you need to have a really CLEAR goal that you are heading to. The reason for you to do something should be a strong one, which comes from yourself, not from other external factors. 

For example, study because you want to learn new things. Not because you want to pass the exams or to satisfy your parents' expectations. Do experiment because you hope to be able to invent something that can help the world in the future. (I've met a few people with this ambition in USM, and I really admire them! Their ambition is so noble!!!)

Personally, I think this story is a bit too extreme.
FIRSTLY, who says the other two people's reasons are not good reasons? I think their reasons are strong enough. It's just up to them to do their best to achieve their goals. They can either persevere or give up in the middle.
SECONDLY, I really oppose violence. Violence cannot solve problems. If the third disciple goes to kill the bandits, then maybe the bandits' children will take revenge on him in the future, and killings will go on and on forever. I really believe in "what goes around, comes around". People who did bad things will eventually get their punishments. Furthermore, we usually see in kung fu dramas that people who practise martial art for bad intention would always get bad ending. XD I would prefer if the third disciple in the story says that, "I want to learn martial art to protect my village's people from the bandits." This would be MUCH better! ^.^

Ok, so, what's so influential of this story?

Well, after reading this, it made me think, is the reason why I agree to join the Chinese Language Society not strong enough to propel me to do my best? I know myself well, that if it is something that I choose for myself, I will definitely love it and give in my all for it, such as girl guides. I believe that with passion, I can do anything. But this... I agreed to be the secretary because at that time, no one wanted to take the post. Even though there are other reasons such as opportunities to learn new things and make new friends, but they are not the main reason why I accepted the nomination. The main reason was still because no one wanted it and I didn't want to waste everyone's time.

Now that the fact cannot be changed, maybe I should start to throw away the passive reason of why I accepted this post. Start planting positive and strong goals in my mind! Even though the other reasons play such a small part when I first decided to take on this journey, can they become substantial reasons for me to continue on this journey in the future?

Quote: The more energy you give to a problem, the more you magnify it.

OK!!! From now on, I will not magnify the passive reason about how I get into this position! Instead, I will MAGNIFY the other reasons, so that I can ignite my passion for this society and give in my all!!!

In the coming one year, I hope to:

1. Learn new things, such as typing meeting minutes (in Mandarin!)

2. Make a lot of new friends

3. Learning the art of able to talk to strangers like old friends

4. Develop my thinking to be more mature, e.g. able to analyse problems

DeeJay, be positive!!!

+ + +

a BIG turning point of my life...

I'm officially appointed as the secretary of Chinese Language Society in USM. We have two secretaries, actually. One is 总秘书, more to handling things with outside bodies. All letters or any paperworks with media, outside NGOs, other societies, etc will be handled by her. Then I'm the 组织秘书, more to paperworks inside the society itself, such as meeting minutes. Under the society, we also have 10 small groups, which are dancing, singing, publishing, social issue discussing, acting, library, mandarin class, career counselling, community service, and debating groups (舞蹈组，歌咏组，编辑族， 社论组，戏剧组，图书组，华文班，升学辅导组，社区工作坊, 辩论团). And, I am the one responsible for coordinating with all the groups.

[Flashing back to how I come to this point...]


To become a member of the society, we have to fill in a form. Actually, I've rejected to fill in the form twice. Reason is, I feel that Chinese Language Society is really not my style. I mean its activities, objectives of the society, and all. But there were some activities which I've joined and liked them very much, such as camps and being a stage crew for a concert. At the 3rd time when I was offered the form, I finally gave in... (Things will definitely be different now if I have persevered till the end....)

Then came the Annual General Meeting of the society!!! *Deng deng deng deng* The AGM had to be held twice, because in the first time, they took almost four hours to elect a new president!!! Apparently, no one wanted to take that post. (This is soooo much different from girl guides. That time, we really have the spirit to play our own part in girl guides! =) ) For the first meeting, I did not attend because I have an Accounting programme. Then for the second meeting, I thought, "Well, it's nothing, just go there to vote, although the meeting might take a long time." Besides that, my senior also told me, if the Chinese Language Society failed to elect a new committee, then it will have to be "frozen" for one year, and all activities under it will have to be stopped. That time, we were going to have the concert that I mentioned earlier, and it must not be cancelled! So, I went to the 2nd AGM.

At the AGM, which I still remembered clearly... It was in the process of nominating people for the post of secretary... I was telling a joke to my friend, "什么卡通人物最喜欢帮助别人？---多拉A梦， 因为伸出＂圆＂手。" Haha! Then, suddenly I heard my name being called! Oh no, who nominated me??!! That person was a senior whom I had met just a few days ago in a talk that they had organised, but I was the only non-member to attend the talk, so they got to know me. I rejected; then she nominated me again; and I rejected again. Luckily they didn't nominate me anymore, I thought. It was quite terrifying, I tell you! Once nominated and before you reply either accept or reject, the seniors will come near you and kept persuading you! Oh, for your information, if someone is nominated thrice and rejected all 3 times, then he or she cannot be nominated for that particular post anymore.

A new 总秘书 was "born". Ok, safe--- My heart was still beating very fast due to the shock. I never thought to be in the committee! Imagine, being at the top of the top of such a LARGE society!!! I really didn't believe that I have the power and right to be in such a position, as I have only started to join a few activities recently. There were surely more suitable people.

Then, the next post - 组织秘书! Again, nominated. This time, I think I was influenced by those seniors who kept pestering me about the benefits that I can get, about how much I will learn, etc. I actually accepted! Then have to go out so that everyone can vote. Sigh, once accepted, no need to look at the votes... No need to wish that I fail the voting session... Of course almost everyone will vote me, because I was the only candidate, no one else wanted to take the post, and also because it was already past midnight and they wanted to end the meeting as fast as possible.

[Coming back to present...]

So, that's how things happened.

I thought before,
if I did not go for the AGM, then I would not be where I am now...; or
if I did not attend the talk a few days ago before the AGM, then I wouldn't be where I am now...; or even
if I did not fill in the membership form, then I would not be where I am now!

But...

Things are already how they are now... I just have to accept it and do the best I can!!!

DeeJay! You can do it!!! 

Just do your best and enjoy the process!!!

Self esteem + Self worth

[I'm going to class in half an hour's time, and I should be studying for my two tests coming tomorrow and the day after tomorrow. But I just have to blog about this topic, because it's really meaningful to share with all my visitors! It has changed my view of life, and I hope it has changed yours.]

Yesterday, my English class was having oral presentation. The topic given by my English teacher is, "One thing that I want to pass down to my next generation." The "one thing" need not be tangible. It may be a skill or knowledge or value too.

There is a guy who presented about "Self-respect". In his slide, he used this quote from Mark Twain. From his presentation, I understand that self-respect starts from respecting ourselves, then only you can respect others because you will be able to see the positive sides of others. Next, you can increase your self esteem and self worth.

At first I thought that this was just a normal presentation with moral values, but when my English teacher asked us one question, I was stunned...

"How many of you are actually not comfortable with yourself?"

I raised up my hands, but I told my English teacher that it happens sometimes, not always. Then she said that it is ironic that sometimes you see someone whose appearance can make everyone become envious of her, but inside herself, her self esteem is so low and has low confidence. Don't judge a book by its cover, she added.

Then, she shared a story about herself and her son to the class.

Her son is a fat boy and he had problems regarding his weight. He had low self esteem and was constantly feeling sad when people called him nicknames or pinched him. My English teacher, being a fat girl herself, understands the feeling very much! But, in their house, the whole family calls the elder son Fei Fei (which means Fat Fat). She explained to her son that they call him that not because they want to tease him, but because they love him for who he is!

Then, in an event in my campus, she brought her son to visit the stalls. A teacher saw them and invited her son to play a game in her booth. Her son declined because he was not good at the game. Shockingly, the teacher said a statement which should never be coming out from a teacher's mouth!

"Fat people are always lazy!"

Of course my English teacher felt insulted and was very angry. When she reached home, she complained to her husband. But then, her elder son told his parents, "Aiyah, forget it la... It's no big deal!"

My English teacher told us, at that moment, she realised that her son's self-esteem was quite high! And she feels glad for him! ^.^


After listening to her story, I'm not sure how other classmates felt, but I certainly was touched! We don't need to feel self-depreciated just because of how other people look at us! The only thing we need to do is -

LOVE OUR OWN SELF!

TELL YOURSELF: I AM THE BEST!!!

Others don't have the right to look down at us;

And we have NO reason to look down at ourselves!!!

Here, DeeJay would like to thank DeeJay's friend for picking such a meaningful topic to share with us. Thank you very much to my English teacher too for her story, which I'm 200% sure that my life has changed 360 degrees from that moment onwards and I can predict that my life is going to be better and better! 

Thank you very much!!! Really appreciate it!!! 

Hi! Long time no see!

Hehe! It seems like I have abandoned my blog for too long~~~

Don't worry! I'm back in action! ^.^

I gained the momentum to blog after my Business Communication class. My lecturer was teaching about how to design a web page - the spacing, alignment, font, etc. It brought back my interest in blogging again! Haha!

Before this, I kept thinking about what topic should I blog about, but for now, I'll just blog about anything in my mind to get me started. If I keep pondering on a good topic, then I think it will be very long before you can see my new post! XP

Okay,

What should I blog about?

1. I've just bought a swimsuit, going to learn swimming by myself. I also borrowed a book from library, which teaches beginners the drills to learn swimming. Hopefully I can succeed! If not, maybe I'll take swimming as my co-curricular activity next semester...

2. When I just started this second semester of my university life, I felt really demotivated to take part in any non-academic activities. I know that taking part in activities is the one that adds colours to campus life, but I really couldn't bring myself to register for any activities. But now, after 3 weeks, the feeling disappeared! And I'm really glad that it disappeared! :D Because with that feeling, I couldn't seem to enjoy anything, even eating lunch with my friends felt like something was lacking. Now, I look forward to those activities that I've registered and I can feel that my optimism towards life is back! Yay! I'm going to enjoy life now! :D

3. I've joined 文娱, an activity by the Chinese Society of USM. It's like a performance night with singing, dancing, and dramas. I'm just a stage crew. BUT, I'm gonna enjoy being with all the crews, even though we are just working behind the scene, and audiences won't realised what we have done. :) Audiences will marvel at how elegant the dancers are, or how funny the drama is; but they won't comment on the wonderful lighting, or how efficient the equipment and microphone crews are in arranging the tools. But still, we are like cows (sorry, don't know other things that can describe more accurately XP), diligently doing our work without any complaint, without sad feelings that no one realise our contribution except our own crews. :)

4. I'm going to a camp this weekend! Hopefully I can bond well with all the participants... I know I am someone who can't warm up with people very quickly... Ahh! Anyway, just enjoy the camp and the activities!!! :) Maybe my next post will be about this camp. :)

5. Okay! My resolution: to post at least once a week! It's time for me to polish up my English and writing skills!

Dear loyal readers, hope that DeeJay's next post will be soon! XP

Thanks for tuning in to fm004! See you! ^.^

Relax 'n' Chill

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Relax 'n' Chill !!!

Hehe, sorry for the emotional post just before this! XP

I just read a quote from a drawing on the library wall, which made me realise something.

It said that, 

Knowing what kind of person we are is good, but we should not be too stubborn and stick on it, like saying that, "I am like this, so I cannot accept other kind of behaviour." If we are like this, then we will become too rigid inflexible.

So, now I'm going to try to understand why others have different kinds of behaviour than me, but still, I will remain my ownself. =D

今天，我想家了。。。

进入大学，不知不觉已过了四个月。四个月里，我终于想家了。。。
一直以为我已习惯了宿舍生活，并且也很坚强，所以一定不会像 Matrik 时那样，因想家而掉泪。但原来，我错了，竟然高估了自己。回家的日子还剩不到半个月，我竟然更想家了。。。@.@我是个奇怪得人吧？

Entering university, unknowingly, FOUR months have passed. In this four months, it's the first time I feel homesick...

All this while, I thought that I have grown accustomed to life in hostel, away from home and my family, and that I have grown to be tough. So, I won't be like the time when I was in Matrik, dropping tears because of homesickness. 

But in fact, I was very wrong. I overestimated myself. There is less than half a month to go before I'm going home, but I feel even more homesick in this period... @.@ I'm weird, right?

我觉得应该不是考试的关系。。。应该是突然发现自己与其他人的分别，所以感到孤单了。。。
I don't think this kind of feeling is because of the semester test... I think the this feeling arose due to I realise how different I am compared to the others, so I felt lonely...

到底是什么分别呢？

So, what's the difference?

从小学起，我就对“分数”有强烈的反感！
每当拿到某张试卷时，同学们跑过来追问分数，这让我很反感！
每当考完某张试卷时，同学们跑过来问：“考到怎样？一定很好！” 这让我很反感！（既然已经自己决定了我一定考到很好，那为什么还要问？！）
每当老师发完考卷后，许多人涌去前面向老师讨分数（不是因为老师改错）的场景，让我很反感！
每当同学来参考答案，不是为了从错误中学习，竟然是为了看哪里还可以挣点分数，这让我很反感！

Well, since primary school, I have ALWAYS have a strong aversion toward "exam marks"!

Every time after getting back an exam paper, friends coming to ask about my results, this makes me feel averse!

Every time after finishing a paper, friends coming to ask, "How's the test? You must have done very well!" This make me feel averse! (Since you already have that perception in your mind, why bother to ask?!)

Every time a teacher finished giving out our exam papers, the scene of everyone crowding around the teacher to ask for more marks (not because of the teacher marked wrongly), this makes me feel averse!

Every time friends come to compare answer, not because of they want to learn from their mistakes, but because they want to see where can they ask for more marks from the teacher, this makes me feel averse!

为什么全部人都把考试围绕在“分数” 上？！
为什么读书就不能为了想要提升自己？！
为什么考试就不能被期待？！
为什么考试就不能被视为衡量自己的能力的工具呢？！
为什么全部人都得把考试视为与别人比较高低的工具呢？！
 为什么分数就不能只是留着给自己知道呢？！

Why must everyone revolve around "marks" when it's about examination?!

Why can't studying be solely a learning process to upgrade ourselves?!

Why can't examination be something that is to be anticipated?!

Why can't examination be merely a tool for us to measure ourselves?!

Why must everyone treat exam as a tool to differentiate among people?!

Why can't "marks" be just something for ourselves to know?!

我还蛮讨厌社会互相比较的想法！！！
我的想法是： 我们只需要和自己比较，不断地提升自己，就已经是达到成功了！何必与别人比较呢？！如果只是与别人比较，那如果社会的等级比你低，那你是不是就可以休息了？那如果是这样，我相信社会不会像今天那么进步的！想想看，医生和科学家也是为了挑战自己的极限与知识而不断发现新的东西！所以，我始终坚决地相信与自己比较才是最好的！

I quite hate the thinking of our society now, everyone is just thinking about competition with others!

This is my thoughts: We only need to compare with our own selves, continuously improving ourselves, then we are already a success in our lives! Why compare with others?! If your aim is to be better than others, then if you already surpass others, does that mean you don't have to do anything anymore? If that is the case, then I believe that our society won't achieve the development that we have now! Think about it, the reason why doctors and scientists are able to discover new things are also due to their desire to challenge their own limits and knowledge! Therefore, I strongly believe that competing with our own selves is the BEST!

今天突然强烈地感受到我的想法跟朋友们都很不同，而且我又是很固执己见的人，因此感到很孤单。世界上有没有另一个人也是有和我一样的想法的呢？有的话，可以出来安慰我以下吗？让我知道我不是孤军作战的； 让我知道我不是个“怪物”。。。哈哈~（XD）
Today, I suddenly strongly feel the difference between my thoughts and my friends', although I already know about the existence of the differences. Furthermore, I am someone who is very stubborn to defend my own principles and very hard to change my views, so I feel a little lonely. Isn't there anyone in this world who shares the same thoughts with me? If there is, can you come out? Tell me that I'm not alone in this world; tell me that I'm not the odd one... Lol~ (XD)

Hooh~~~ Finally there's someplace where I can release all my thoughts!!! If I try to tell all these to someone, I might bore that person! XD