进入大学，不知不觉已过了四个月。四个月里，我终于想家了。。。
一直以为我已习惯了宿舍生活，并且也很坚强，所以一定不会像 Matrik 时那样，因想家而掉泪。但原来，我错了，竟然高估了自己。回家的日子还剩不到半个月，我竟然更想家了。。。@.@我是个奇怪得人吧？
Entering university, unknowingly, FOUR months have passed. In this four months, it's the first time I feel homesick...
All
this while, I thought that I have grown accustomed to life in hostel,
away from home and my family, and that I have grown to be tough. So, I
won't be like the time when I was in Matrik, dropping tears because of
homesickness.
But in fact, I was very wrong. I overestimated
myself. There is less than half a month to go before I'm going home, but
I feel even more homesick in this period... @.@ I'm weird, right?
我觉得应该不是考试的关系。。。应该是突然发现自己与其他人的分别，所以感到孤单了。。。
I don't think this kind of feeling is because of the semester test... I
think the this feeling arose due to I realise how different I am
compared to the others, so I felt lonely...
到底是什么分别呢？
So, what's the difference?
从小学起，我就对“分数”有强烈的反感！
每当拿到某张试卷时，同学们跑过来追问分数，这让我很反感！
每当考完某张试卷时，同学们跑过来问：“考到怎样？一定很好！” 这让我很反感！（既然已经自己决定了我一定考到很好，那为什么还要问？！）
每当老师发完考卷后，许多人涌去前面向老师讨分数（不是因为老师改错）的场景，让我很反感！
每当同学来参考答案，不是为了从错误中学习，竟然是为了看哪里还可以挣点分数，这让我很反感！
Well, since primary school, I have ALWAYS have a strong aversion toward "exam marks"!
Every time after getting back an exam paper, friends coming to ask about my results, this makes me feel averse!
Every time after finishing a paper, friends coming to ask, "How's the test? You must have done very well!" This make me feel averse! (Since you already have that perception in your mind, why bother to ask?!)
Every time a teacher finished giving out our exam papers, the scene of everyone crowding around the teacher to ask for more marks (not because of the teacher marked wrongly), this makes me feel averse!
Every time friends come to compare answer, not because of they want to learn from their mistakes, but because they want to see where can they ask for more marks from the teacher, this makes me feel averse!
为什么全部人都把考试围绕在“分数” 上？！
为什么读书就不能为了想要提升自己？！
为什么考试就不能被期待？！
为什么考试就不能被视为衡量自己的能力的工具呢？！
为什么全部人都得把考试视为与别人比较高低的工具呢？！
为什么分数就不能只是留着给自己知道呢？！
Why must everyone revolve around "marks" when it's about examination?!
Why can't studying be solely a learning process to upgrade ourselves?!
Why can't examination be something that is to be anticipated?!
Why can't examination be merely a tool for us to measure ourselves?!
Why must everyone treat exam as a tool to differentiate among people?!
Why can't "marks" be just something for ourselves to know?!
我还蛮讨厌社会互相比较的想法！！！
我的想法是： 我们只需要和自己比较，不断地提升自己，就已经是达到成功了！何必与别人比较呢？！如果只是与别人比较，那如果社会的等级比你低，那你是不是就可以休息了？那如果是这样，我相信社会不会像今天那么进步的！想想看，医生和科学家也是为了挑战自己的极限与知识而不断发现新的东西！所以，我始终坚决地相信与自己比较才是最好的！
I quite hate the thinking of our society now, everyone is just thinking about competition with others!
This is my thoughts: We only need to compare with our own selves, continuously improving ourselves, then we are already a success in our lives! Why compare with others?! If your aim is to be better than others, then if you already surpass others, does that mean you don't have to do anything anymore? If that is the case, then I believe that our society won't achieve the development that we have now! Think about it, the reason why doctors and scientists are able to discover new things are also due to their desire to challenge their own limits and knowledge! Therefore, I strongly believe that competing with our own selves is the BEST!
今天突然强烈地感受到我的想法跟朋友们都很不同，而且我又是很固执己见的人，因此感到很孤单。世界上有没有另一个人也是有和我一样的想法的呢？有的话，可以出来安慰我以下吗？让我知道我不是孤军作战的； 让我知道我不是个“怪物”。。。哈哈~（XD）
Today, I suddenly strongly feel the difference between my thoughts and my friends', although I already know about the existence of the differences. Furthermore, I am someone who is very stubborn to defend my own principles and very hard to change my views, so I feel a little lonely. Isn't there anyone in this world who shares the same thoughts with me? If there is, can you come out? Tell me that I'm not alone in this world; tell me that I'm not the odd one... Lol~ (XD)
Hooh~~~ Finally there's someplace where I can release all my thoughts!!! If I try to tell all these to someone, I might bore that person! XD
