Seeing others who can talk naturally with people, who always can bring up topic when with strangers, I envy them. Meanwhile, I am wary with strangers and usually don't reveal myself much. By strangers, it can also be someone I see every day but don't have much interaction.
Yeah, I may be an over-positive person.
I always look at the positive side of a person, believing that every person has a Buddha inside the heart. I try to put myself in their shoes, thinking from their point of view, considering their circumstances. (Sometimes I wonder, is this considered as helping them to find an excuse for some "unacceptable" behaviour? ("Unacceptable" is "" because everyone's interpretation of unacceptable is different. What I think is unacceptable may be acceptable to others) )
But then, people always ask:
Why are you so 慢热? (which means slow to warm up to people)
Why are you so positive and trusting?
DON'T YOU PEOPLE KNOW THAT THIS TWO IS A CONTRADICTING BEHAVIOUR??!!!!
HOW CAN I BE VERY AMIABLE AND SOCIABLE WHILE BEING CAUTIOUS ABOUT PEOPLE AND ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT THE NEGATIVE SIDE OF PEOPLE??!!!
ISN'T THIS CALLED A PRETENTIOUS PEOPLE??
Well, I know I also a contradictory person, being positive and trusting, yet slow to warm up to people. But then, this is because I know that we can't be friends with everyone. Humans are meant to be made up of many, many, many circles of people who can connect with each other. Why should I force myself to be so many versions of me just to fit in every circle??!!!
For me, I'm more comfortable of being a positive and trusting yet 慢热 person.
Instead of being a pretentious person, acting friendly to everyone but in the mind, keep thinking bad about everyone. Life is already so hard, why make it harder for yourself by having all those negative thoughts in your mind????
By the way, where can I find a job where everyone is just concentrating about how to make the organisation better or how to improve work flow? I'm fed up of working where people are calculative of any extra work load. (YOU DON'T WANT TO TAKE UP EXTRA WORK LOAD, BUT THEN WHEN SOMEONE IS WILLING TO DO IT AND THE BOSS IS WILLING TO GIVE MORE RESPONSIBILITY TO THIS PERSON, YOU FEEL JEALOUS AND SAY THAT THE BOSS IS PRACTISING FAVOURITISM!!!)
I'm thinking, is working in an NGO will have lesser chance of meeting such people?
DeeJay thinks it's really time to change job...
