Sunday, 27 October 2024

1st Retreat - Sea Turtle Conservation (5 - 12 Oct 2024)

I have been eyeing to join the sea turtle conservation program in east coast of West Malaysia for many years. After researching a few programs, I finally decided to join SEATRU program (Sea Turtle Research Unit) of UMT, and I'm really glad I chose this, otherwise I won't meet all these amazing people! And the staffs are really knowledgeable (not sure about other programs). I think I registered around May'24. I selected the very last session before they close the islands for monsoon season, because of new ERP system in my workplace, and I was hoping that the system will stabilise by then. As it was towards the end of the nesting season, I was hoping to still be able to see some turtles.

I took leave on Friday (4th Oct) and flew to Kuala Terengganu (Sultan Mahmud Airport), reaching around 11am. 

The airport building is simple yet has Malay architectural style, looks like Istana Melayu.


Instead of taking a 10-minutes taxi to the hotel, I walked instead, and it took an hour plus. It was good exercise. I was sweating while walking alongside the beach, observing the weekend activities of the local people (selling food, picnic with family), extending my sight to the far horizon after so long time of only facing screens, imagining my colleagues working while I'm as free as a bird, feeling the sea breeze~ 😄(although it was quite hot 😅).

Saw this flower while walking. First time seeing this kind. Giant Calotrope (calotropis gigantea).

I reached my hotel early (check-in time is 3pm), but fortunately after a short wait, the receptionist allowed me to check in earlier. It was a simple room with single bed, and very thin wall. (I can hear the next door's guest snoring at night. 😂 Luckily I can fall asleep easily.) 

Outside of the hotel. It has restaurants and its own mini-mart.

Nearby beach. Sunset, picnic, fishing, rocky beach.


Enjoyed ikan bakar for dinner.


The next day, again I walked to UMT instead of taking taxi. It took about 45 mins.

I was the first to arrive (around 8.00am?). There were many students at that time, and I was the only one with huge backpack and sleeping bag. Everyone was staring at me. After that, they entered the hall and I was alone.
I was worried that I waited at the wrong place, so I sent a message into the Telegram group of SEATRU, and was reassured by Daus (whom I came to know later as one of the Rangers) that other volunteers and the van will arrive by 9.30am. 
We had some preliminary introduction while waiting. 3 of the girls in the pic (Erine, Xandra, and Sheron) are certified divers!

We put our bags onto a pickup truck driven by Daus, together with the food supplies for our next 8 days. Then all of us (13 pax) got into a van towards the jetty. It took about 45 mins.

Cats at the jetty.



Boat journey to Chagar Hutang. Our 8 days without connection began here. 
It was a nice trip, quite long (around 45 mins?). I was wishing that it never ends. 😆 

But we must arrive in the end, for the next wonderful 8 days to unfold.
We formed a human chain to pass our bags and our food supplies (rice, eggs, oil, veggies, chickens, bread, sugar, condensed milk, etc).

Dining area, common area, kitchen, and sleeping area during night patrol duty.😂
The smaller table at the inner-left is only for rangers and interns; volunteers are not allowed.


I slept on the first bed just in front of the door, upper-bunk. I like it as it's cool.

Washrooms which we have to use the squeegee to sweep out the water.
We can use the life jackets and snorkeling masks anytime until 3pm.
(After that time, mother turtles that are planning to lay eggs that night might be surveying around the sea area, so we don't want to scare them away.)

No snakes PLEASE! Excellent warning! 😂

We started with briefing by Anwar & Mirul. Then we cooked our lunch (spaghetti bolognese). Then in the afternoon, Anwar briefed us how to do nest check, as we will need to do it starting the next morning.

This is the board from previous group. "Volunteer's activities" start around 5pm every day.

This is the results of our slot. (20 landings, 10 nested) 
Total 939 nests this year (up to our slot ZB). Last year was 2000+, but this is expected, as turtles usually have 1-2 years gap between nesting years (depends on species, I believe this is only in Chagar Hutang's case). Next year should be busy, should I join again? 😉
We're fortunate to have 1 hawksbill turtle nested in our slot, and at the very last night too!

After 2-3 days, all of us started to get used to our daily routine and our roles. We were moving around and doing chores in a synchronised way, like a familiar household. Such as during meals, we could coordinate well in washing cutleries and distributing the rice. The guys would do the composting; Erine would wash dishes after meals (but we still helped); I would sweep and mop the floor from time to time (with help from Chee Hau and En Hui).

Below are our main activities throughout the 8 days and 7 nights.

1. Night patrol
As it was end of nesting season with less turtles, we only split to 2 groups instead of 3, and we didn't patrol until 6am. It depended on the instruction from the interns, if they predict that no more turtle will come, we could turn in for the night (ranging from 3am-5am). Some mornings when I checked the beach for turtle tracks, it seemed that the interns' prediction was right.
  • We learned how to recognise turtle tracks (difference of it going up/down). We also drew a horizontal line across the track after we've checked it, so that we can recognise when there's a new track (I can imagine it should be quite confusing during the peak season).
  • Two types of turtles lay eggs on Chagar Hutang's 350m beach - green sea turtles (endangered) and hawksbill sea turtles (critically endangered). Green turtle has its name from the green fat found beneath its carapace (its shell), due to its diet strictly being seagrass, not from the colour of its carapace. Hawksbill is rarer in Chagar Hutang, its name comes from the shape of its beak. Compare to hawksbill, green turtles are bigger and are more used to having humans around. When the turtles are laying eggs, we are careful only to shine lights from their shell till their tail but not at their head, to prevent them from getting shocked and abandon laying. But after laying, we can usually shine at their face and even touch them to measure their carapace or check if there's any tagging at their front fippers. Green turtles are more relaxed when we're measuring their shells, and they move slowly back to the sea after laying. Hawksbill was trying to "run" to the sea when we wanted to measure its carapace and we had to use our strength to stop it from moving. 😅
  • Red light is used during night patrol. Although it also has some impact of light pollution to the turtles (https://seaturtlespacecoast.org/sea-turtles-and-the-red-light-myth/), but it's better than white light. And the interns taught us how to shine it so that we won't disturb the turtles.
  • Sometimes a turtle will land but leave without nesting, maybe due to disturbance or feeling discomfort. But usually the next day or later that same night, it will come again. When a hawksbill landed, we were so excited but we didn't dare to go close to see, worried of scaring it away. Only few volunteers and the interns went near to check on the turtle. Then we just laid on the sand while waiting for it to start chambering. The first day it landed, it moved around for 3 hours, digging around, but in the end, it left. As per Anwar & Mirul's saying, we were scammed by the turtle. 😂 But the next day, it came and nested! It was raining that night. When the rain stopped and we went patrolling, we found that the turtle has already finished laying and was camouflaging. I think it was good that we missed to see it laying eggs, so it could lay without disturbance. 
    The Hawksbill form.

  • There are specific steps that the turtles do when nesting. For green turtles, it starts with Body Pitting > Chambering > Laying > Cover chamber > Camouflaging. Whereas for hawksbill, it doesn't body pit, it just start with chambering directly, so the depth of its nest is shallower than green turtle's. We use our arm as a rough measure (top/middle/bottom) - bottom means around the depth of the whole arm; middle means depth until elbow. We also learned to recognise what steps the turtles are doing from their actions.
  • I had this question which keep bugging my mind: how do turtles learn the steps to perform before laying eggs? Is it in their DNA, since they don't have nurturing period like mammals? Or, do first-time mothers get advice from other female turtles inside the sea?
    I asked Anwar & Mirul, but it seemed they misunderstood my question - they thought I was asking, how do we know if it's a first-time mother - and they replied, there's no difference, just that it might be more sensitive to noise/light. 
    When I tried to research further in internet, I can't find any articles that answer this question. I think this could be a good research question? Just to prove my theory. 😄 But I think it'll be hard to research, as the years starting from the babies crawling to the sea until they come back to nest are known as the "lost years".
    Do sea turtles communicate among themselves?
    https://conserveturtles.org/information-sea-turtles-general-behavior/
    https://conserveturtles.org/information-sea-turtles-frequently-asked-questions/
  • I was also curious why do sea turtles have shells that they cannot hide in, like tortoises. (https://www.turtleconservationsociety.org.my/why-do-turtles-have-shells/)

  • Step 1: Body pitting - create a big crater for its body by using it's fippers and rotating it's Sometimes it will keep changing spots after body pitting, until it finds a suitable spot.
    This video is Step 2: Chambering - using its back fippers so adeptly to scoop up the sand and make a really deep chamber for its eggs. They look so skilled and makes me wonder, from where do they learn this from?

    Step 3: Laying eggshttps://youtu.be/6nfmfTJc3uM (had to upload via YouTube as it's an unsupported format by my computer. Thanks to a friend who recorded this). At this stage, if the location is good, we will quickly put a long string tied to a coral into the nest, then tie the string to a wooden stick to mark the location, this is called in-situ nest.
    If the location is not good (e.g. if it's a favourite spot of nesting and other mother turtles might ruin the eggs / it's in lower ground and might get drown when monsoon comes), then we need to quickly "steal" the eggs while the mother is laying it. In some cases when it's hard to steal, then we mark with the coral string & wooden stick, and we'll dig the eggs out in the morning to relocate them.
    "Stealing" eggs require some techniques. One of the back fippers' side will have an opening, and we must go from there. We mustn't touch the turtle and must be careful not to accidentally push sand into the hole. Some people can hold many eggs at once, but I only dare to take two at a time.
    Green turtle eggs which we relocated in the morning. Most of the time, we will relocate immediately at night, after "stealing" the eggs from the mother.
    The egg shells are soft and flexible. Hawksbill's eggs are smaller. 

    Step 4: Covers chamber - using its back fippers to cover the chamber. The staff said that at this stage, usually the turtle will be in trance mode after it has laid eggs, due to hormone. So it's fine now for us to touch it, measure its carapace, and check for its tags at the armpits of its front fippers. (For hawksbill, it might have different behaviour. With the only one that we encounter, it tried to run away when we wanted to measure its carapace after it has covered its chamber.)

    Step 5: Camouflaging - the turtle will violently toss sand around and maybe try to create another pit nearby, to camouflage the exact location of its nest. At this stage, we will leave the turtle to its own business and continue our patrol. 

    Step 6: The turtle crawls back to the sea.

  • The interns told us a story of another turtle crashing into a turtle which was laying eggs from behind. They couldn't stop the turtles from crashing, so they had no choice but only to watch. The turtle that was in the midst of laying was startled and rushed back into the sea while laying its eggs along the way.
  • This is a very meticulous way of relocating the nest (https://turtlesandtides.wordpress.com/2014/09/08/moving-a-turtle-nest/) - by building a chamber that mirrors the original one.
    I found a research in Chagar Hutang itself (https://www.sciencedirect.com/science/article/pii/S1319562X21003892) - surprisingly I can totally relate to everything the article says! Truly, real experience is the most valuable! The digging of the relocated nest is done by the ranger/intern. I guess they're trained on the dimension of the chamber, and it does look similar to the one in this article. In the article, it says in 2017, 36% of the nests were relocated. But this year, based on the board, it seems around 70% are relocated. Perhaps they've tested that the man-made nest is working well. My group had excavated an in-situ nest which is under vegetation, most of the eggs are bad... Hopefully we're on the right track of conservation.
  • We don't need to keep patrolling the beach. If there is no turtle, we patrol in the next hour. If there is turtle, we take note of the stage it's in and come back sooner. E.g. if it's body pitting, we'll check back after 30 mins. If it's chambering, then we'll stay by its side.

    During patrolling gap, we usually chit chat or rest on tikar on the beach. If it's raining, we waited indoor until the rain stopped. Sometimes the rain poured heavily without much warning. The interns can recognise when rain is falling soon from the slight temperature change of the wind, and we'd quickly bring everything indoor.
    We also played UK & US version of "Never have I ever" and Malaysia's version of the opposite. There's also many hilarious moment, like Chee Hau said "leg fingers" instead of toes, and even I was stunned, trying to figure out the right word, until Vicki from US corrected us. 😂


    Sometimes we slept on the beach until the next morning. It's not very comfortable due to uneven surface of the sand, but it's a blissful way to wake up, seeing the sea first thing in the morning.


2. Nest check in the morning
In the morning, Mirul/Anwar will pass to us the forms of nests which are Day 45 or above. And we check the nests on a 3-day interval.

On Day 45: we only look for the location of the nests - which are marked with the wooden pole with the nest number. The whole 350m beach is divided into 35 sectors for easier pinpoint of the nests. Usually the turtles are not hatched/not ready yet, we don't need to do anything.

On Day 48: We dig the nest following the coral string. Sometimes we found baby turtles, and we need to check it's belly button, if it's still bulging and the egg yolk is still big, then we put them back into the nest and cover it up. Nests which are under shade will take longer to hatch. 
If the babies are ready, we bring them out and store them in the "turtle coop", then we'll release them at night, when there are less predators. We release them in different trays and with distance in between, to increase their survival rate. (One batch might be a decoy to lure predators - the sharks. 😢)
Baby turtles coming out of the nest. This is the most wonderful and moving part of the job!

They're so active!! Them being able to flip over when they are upside down is a fitness test for them.
Sometimes we found deformed babies. This is due to too many (above 100), and the bottom turtles might get deformed... 

Flat yolk - the turtle is ready.

They also found an albino turtle just recently before we arrived! They will keep it for around 3 years and then release it. As it's white, it'll be easily seen by predators and will be eaten. Thus, hoping that if we release it when it's bigger, it'll have higher chance of survival.
It eats seaweed and jellyfish.

On Day 51 and 54: Again, we dig and check the nest. If we find that most of the babies are ready and active, we bring them out. Then we excavate the nest. Excavation is the most dreaded part of the job (but somehow on the 8th day, we kinda miss this and are willing to take on extra forms from the staff 😄). We have to face flies, sandflies, ants, crabs, maggots, and bad smell during excavation. We also learned to identify the reason of the rotten eggs - pipped, fungi, maggot, crab. Sometimes we found empty egg shells but no turtles. It means that the baby turtles have crawled out by themselves.
We have to count the rotten eggs and all the empty egg shells, to ensure that we excavate everything and not leave any in the hole. This is to ensure future eggs will not be contaminated. 
The rotten eggs and egg shells are dumped in the Eggshell Station, which are happily devoured by monkeys, monitor lizards, and hermit crabs.
Sorting and counting the eggs. The top part are rotten eggs due to fungi. Bottom part are empty egg shells. By excavating and counting, we can also know the hatched rate.

This is called "pipped", which means the baby died in the egg. This type is the smelliest.

Maggots and me excavating.

Dead sea turtle, attracting flies. It's really smelly.


3. Leisure activities 
After nest check and before lunch, we went snorkeling, swimming, or kayak. We could also do these up until 3pm, but we usually stopped by lunch time, as it's too hot after that.
On 6th Oct, I cut my feet from snorkeling - kicked a coral as I was not wearing glasses in the sea. Luckily Vicki helped to give me first aid (she's an obstetrician!). Time passed so slow while I was limping around. Now that I check the dates, on that evening itself, I was already hiking to Prawn Spa, and the next day to Turtle's Rock. I'm amazed by how fast the wound healed, though it's quite deep!

This is on 12th Oct, 6 days after the incident.

Many people got cut in they feet too. Plasters are definitely a must-bring item, and wearing shoes when patrolling at night is also needed. The interns were going around without shoes, even when hiking, and we were trying to follow them. But the beach is full of dead corals and some are sharp. Patrolling the 350m beach was slowly turning into a hell's torture in every step. 😂

I started water activity again on the 5th or 6th day. First time kayak by myself for such a long time. It's very nice. The others were snorkeling nearby, and I became their "taxi" to bring them back to the shore. These are some nice pics taken by other friends. ("Wash" your eyes with these beautiful pics after looking at my "disgusting" injury 😆)



Nemo (ocellaris clownfish): https://youtu.be/2UC-JH7PM00


4. Afternoon pastimes
  • Play games (spy game, killer game). I don't really like killer game but spy game is ok.
  • Brought a Japanese book there, thought I could study a bit before my Japanese exam in Dec, but I only read few pages, then slept at the pondok/hammock. I also read an e-book from my phone titled "Bullshit Jobs: A theory". This is more interesting 😅 and I managed to read more pages. 

    This is my most favourite spot to sleep in the afternoon. It's comfortable and cool. I can sleep for few hours soundly.

  • Listen to ghost stories from the ranger and interns. The previous batch before us was too noisy and Abang Man was not really happy with them. Abang Man (ranger) and Anwar (intern) saw a Yeti ghost peering from behind a tree just in front of the kitchen. Daus (ranger) wanted to see it and Abang Man told him, "close your eyes and see with your heart." He went to the kitchen and do so, but he said he only see pitch black. 😂 So funny!
    Anwar said one male volunteer saw a white lady ghost at the sea while patrolling the beach alone at night, and he quietly turned around and quickly walked back. Vicki said her grandmother, who is from Terengganu, told her the story of a white lady ghost too, who is rumoured to have lost her baby and will try to take your baby if you're pregnant.
  • Afternoon time is the best time to sweep and mop the floor, as the floor is dry and there's less activity which can cause wet floor, like cooking.
  • One of the volunteers (Kar Leng) has a book which she started when she was on working holiday program in New Zealand. The question in the book is, what advice would you give to your younger self? This book kept us busy - we can read other people's writings and also think about what we should write. Many people even decorated their entries with drawings & designs! 


Drawings by Sheron.
  • Anwar asked whether we will come again. Someone wrote in Kar Leng's book that she will not, because she wanted this to be the unique memory. If she comes again, there's bound to be comparison. The higher the expectation, the more the disappointment.
    But for me, I would love to go again. I won't compare the company much (as I was mostly quiet and just observing). I would love to contribute my labour towards helping the program.

5. Volunteers activities at 5pm
  • Prawn spa. I hiked there with my injured foot. I scrunched up a plastic bag to act as a shock absorber. Later on when hiking to Turtle's Rock, I learned that by folding the plastic bag nicely, it's even more comfortable.


    Prawn spa is slightly more painful than fish spa. Luckily I was slightly downstream compare to the others (due to my leg injury), and the prawns are smaller. 


  • Hiking to Turtle's Rock. It's a 30-minutes hike, but we spent some time at the 3 view points.
    Start of the hike.

    First view point.

    I was totally mesmerised by the waves hitting the rocks.

    2nd view point. It's called Turtle's Rock because of this rock shape.

    Another view of the Turtle's Rock. Mirul said that during the mating season, we can see turtles mating at the sea surface. Someone asked why they mate at the sea surface, not in the sea. Mirul said they will be out of breath and need to take in oxygen. 😆
    Turtles can take in oxygen and stay in the sea for many hours! They can even lower their heart beat to reduce oxygen consumption. (Learned from a magazine on the dining table, which is also one of my pastimes.)

    3rd view point.

    Few daredevils challenged this cliff. Mirul (intern who lead the hike) later went down at the right side and secretly climbed up to our side. After some photo shoots, they realised Mirul was gone and shouted for him. 😄 They had to slowly trace back the original route. Luckily everyone is safe. Anyway, we had signed indemnity form and all our actions were our own responsibility.

    This is the point of view from the daredevils side. I didn't know the place I was at was so tall! I wonder from where did Mirul climb up to reach our side...

    Mirul at the bottom.


    I can sit there whole day just watching the waves. It's calming to see the waves crashing on the rocks, and water flowing down from the cracks like a mini waterfall. 
    Meanwhile, as I feel the violence of the waves, there is also respect for nature because our lives are so fragile in front of mother nature.

    End of the hike.

  • Gotong-royong - cleaning the coop, tying coral strings, erasing the marker pen ink on the wooden stick with thinner. I was involved in cleaning the coop. There are so many huge red ants... Hope they won't harm the baby turtles.
  • Beach clean-up - this was more needed during early of the year, when the monsoon season just ended. Volunteers need to ensure a clean beach for the turtles to come and lay eggs. 

The Amazing Company throughout the 8D7N!
Shrinking this section to make the post shorter, as it might only be interesting to me.
  • Monkeys - they'll send the young ones to spy, then the older ones will come to snatch the food when we are not watching. They stole Pringles, bread, and even flour, sugar (in plastic container), and someone's glucose medication. They've evolved to know how to open cupboards (we have to use masking tapes on the cupboards) and open up bamboo dish covers which are quite heavy (we have to keep food in cupboard).
    The flour and sugar were such a waste. We barely used them and they were our last packet too. On the morning of the 8th day, we could only have one piece of pancake each to sustain us until lunch time when we reach the city. Luckily I still have some biscuits to share.
    It was really funny to see few of them negotiating with a monkey that looked old and wise, assuming it's the head of the family. Sheron was asking it to return the sugar and we'd exchange with other food. The monkey was just sitting nonchalantly at a low branch, looking at us, as if saying, "it's not me who took your sugar, maybe another monkey". (We have nothing else as entertainment. 🤷)

  • Hermit crabs - early morning before it gets hot, they will move from the beach into the jungle, and at night, they'll come out and move towards the beach.
There are many in the dining area at night.

Smallest hermit crab found by Anwar.
  • Gecko - making some natural music from time to time.
  • Frog - in the toilet. It jumped on my leg several times, luckily I was wearing long pants. After few days, I managed to bring it out when it jumped on the squeegee.


  • Abang Man (ranger) - a Pulau Redang local who has been working for sea turtles conservation for over 20 years. He can be fierce, but also likes to share knowledge if you ask him any question. Thanks to him, we have delicious dinners. It's not their duty to cook for us, but still they're willing to, which is very much appreciated. They cook better than the mamak (our first lunch after coming out from the island), we miss their cooking so much.

  • Daus (ranger) - he was with us for only few days in the middle. He also cooks very well! He's an introvert but approachable and cool, many people like him.
    Abang Man's pose.

    Last day of Daus with us.

  • Pok Iman (ranger) - cousin of Abang Man, but he was not there during our slot.
  • Mirul (undergraduate/intern) - senior of Anwar. His grandparent is Chinese. Had 'scandal' with two of the volunteers (Venny and Erine), and everyone was making fun of them. 😆 He brought us for the hikes to Prawn Spa and Turtle Rock. He and Anwar make good drinks every dinner (sirap bandung, green tea, etc). They even reduce the sugar as they know Malay and Chinese have different sweet tolerance level.
    Photo from Mirul's instagram (cropping off his face as I didn't get his permission). 
    939 nests until slot ZB. Slot ZC has two more, this is the staff slot who came to help with season closing before monsoon.

  • Anwar (undergraduate/intern) - He gave briefing  on the first day. Very friendly, from KL, good looking with bright eyes. He's very supportive, trying to remember everyone's name. He had competition with his coursemate to memorise the scientific names of sea animals, they can name around 200 species!
    Hawksbill vs green baby turtle. We didn't get to see any hawksbill turtle hatching.
    (Photo from Anwar's Instagram)

  • Jun and Venny - sisters. They left on the 4th/5th day due to allergy. They initially tricked us by swapping their identity (older/younger) during the self-introduction. They're very good in playing killer game.
  • Alice - a Malay girl doing PhD in UMT. She left together with Jun and Venny. She was there to observe the activities, so that she can help to develop an app, which is her project. She was also fully involved in the activities!
    Group photo before Venny, Jun, and Alice left. We wore the volunteer shirt. 

  • Vicki - an obstetrician from US. Her grandmother was born in Terengganu. Her grandmother passed away, and because she heard stories about leatherback sea turtles from her grandmother, she joined this program, I believe to find connection with her grandmother... It must have been a unique feeling for her, to move from delivering human babies to delivering baby turtles.  
  • Miles - from UK, travelling around the world and would like to join the government in environmental work after his travel. He likes sunbathing, and cannot do a squat, which is crucial especially for using the toilet there.

  • Chee Hau - Miles described him as sassy, but we didn't know the chinese translation, and someone simply said "神经病", which means mental, and everyone laughed. Miles sensed something is wrong and said, "whatever they said, it's definitely not what the word means." 😂
    The two guys doing composting.

  • Sheron, Xandra, Erine - 3 of them have diving licenses! Sheron has lots of experience overseas due to her studies in hospitality. Her first solo trip is in Budapest, and we talked for a while about our experiences there. I think Erine is the youngest in our group, 19 years old. She is truly fearless, taking the lead to climb onto the cliff at Turtle's Rock, and she walked like normal while the others were crawling.
  • En Hui, Amber - both are friends from the same secondary school. Amber volunteered to switch to my group after Venny and Jun left. (My group has me, Miles, Vicki, Amber, Erine.)
  • Kar Leng - about my age. She worked in Logistics line and was just back from New Zealand working holiday.

Dab Dab pose.

Meet Dab Dab, our mascot.

Drawn by Sheron.



Time-lapse of stars (by Sheron).


Nice seashells/corals picked by me, but I didn't bring back.





Rangers and interns quarters are this side. 

Starting from the shoe rack area, no shoes are allowed to reduce sand indoor.

A poster at the Outdoor Classroom. The wooden sticks in the poster are the markings of turtles' nests. A coral string is tied from the stick and lead into the base of the nest.
(It gave me the feeling of cemetery, but I try to think positive, hoping for the best for the turtles. 😅)



Leatherback turtle which was once an icon of Terengganu (many leatherbacks laid eggs on Terengganu beach), has now become functionally extinct in Malaysia (meaning that it's extinct in Malaysia but still exists in other countries). People were taking their eggs for consumption, and with turtles' low survival rate of 1/1000, this species finally becomes extinct in Malaysia.


Bidding farewell.



What I learned after this trip: 💓💓
  • This is a much-needed trip after non-stop working even on weekends. Luckily I chose somewhere without any connection with outside world, otherwise I won't be able to fully rest. I think I'll make this my yearly activity, to go to at least one retreat per year, maybe to other conservation/volunteer/monastery program. 
  • After such a long time of only looking at screens, my eyes took some time to adjust to looking far, and also looking hard at night to scan for turtles. 😄 After coming back to work, my eyes feel strained again, but too bad, this is part of my job. This is certainly a workplace injury which sadly we're not protected from. Unless I change my job... Farming or forest conservation work will be nice, I can look at the greens all the time.

Saturday, 1 February 2020

Year 2019 - A Very Eventful Year, Good and Bad

2019 is a really eventful year to me. Lots of things happened especially in my career. There's good and bad things.

1. RDRT Finance to Lombok (1.5 months, Feb - Apr'19)

First time in my job to be deployed overseas. Lots of first time experiences. 

Went to Singapore on a one-day trip to process Indonesia visa. Went to the Botanical Garden. It was a very nice solo trip. Made up my mind, wherever country I go, I must visit their botanical garden.

Indonesia mission was an eye-opener to me. Made me realise that there are lots of processes in my company that I don't know. And I have the opportunity to work closer to other departments as we interact more frequently (we have weekly meeting with everyone involved), unlike in the regional office, only Head of Department attend meetings. And the topics discussed are closer to the community, unlike in regional office, topics are "higher-up", more on coordination, policies, aims, etc (which I always fell asleep even if I try to stop myself). This was certainly a steep learning curve for me, which helped a lot in laying foundation for my role in Finance Analyst and Senior Finance Officer later in 2019.

Met lots of people from different countries. We went to cinema, karaoke, one-day trip to Gili Islands (snorkelling, island hopping, and got sunburnt where my skin could be literally peeled off). Went hiking to a waterfall also with 2 other Finance colleagues. And we often have dinner and went shopping for groceries together. I missed the times 3 of us discussed any topics that crossed our minds. It was nice to be exchanging opinions in an open way. 

Staying in hotel was a nice experience. Free brakfast, room service, air-cond and comfy bed. The first thing I missed when I stepped into my home back in Malaysia was, the tidied hotel room in Lombok. Haha!

After that, due to visa issue, we had to go to Jakarta. Met colleagues in Jakarta office, and also the national society. Luckily we switched hotel as the first one is carpeted, which I don't really like. The 2nd one is close to office too, we can walk to office.

The traffic is really bad in Jakarta. I was so afraid that I might missed my flight, kept praying hard in the taxi. But later, received whatsapp from Anna that my flight was delayed. 

2. New phone - Huawei P30
Got a new phone for my birthday!! 
My previous phone - Xiaomi had some problems during the last few days in Jakarta. It could not be charged and could not be turned on. But when I reach Jakarta airport, it could be charged and turned on again. 

3. Lost World of Tambun
Four of us had a small family trip to the Lost World of Tambun in Ipoh in May'19. Only me and KW went in the Lost World as we had only 2 tickets. Ours were night tickets. We visited the small zoo, and took a story night walk. Then there's fire performance. There are different temperature of hot spas to soak in. Tried the water slide a few times. I think I'm really scared of slides,scared of being pulled down by gravity quickly... 










4. Hiking at Pine Tree Hill
26th May, joined Wei Gie and his friends for hiking. It was a very loooong hike, around 8 hours in and out. And driving up to Fraser's Hill is also a long-winded road. 










5. Futsal competition - MRCS, IFRC, ICRC
26th Jun 2019

6. Finance Analyst
Covered for Rani from mid July - mid Sept (2 months) as she wemt to Geneva to cover for another person. I was in charged of Pakistan, Indonesia, and PNG. It was a good experience, felt like I was working very closely with the country office's Finance, like we are sitting face-to-face, but actually we were talking through Skype messages and sometimes phone calls. 

Not much things happened when I was in charged, mainly doing SOSC for year 2020, changing of bank authorisers, cash requests, generating and validating financial reports, and document checks. Luckily no launching of DREF or Emergency Appeal, but I don't get to learn about them. 

Mehar started covering for me. It was chaotic at first as we just started Apple Purchase Invoice in mid-June, and she didn't know anything about our financial system - budget codes, budget holders. 

7. Senior Finance Officer
Khairi had a motorbike accident and broke his left hand's bone. I covered for him from mid-Sept to early Dec (2.5 months). This is the bad thing happened in 2019. :(

As I'm not really familiar with his work, had to OT many times. And had to chip in USD 50 also as petty cash did not tally. Mahbe I accidentally gave extra to someone.

8. Staff retreat @ The Orchard Wellness and Health Resort
First time took part in staff retreat because since I joined in 2017, this is the first staff retreat.
In the bus. 

Reached after about 2 hours. 

Lunch when we reached. 

The pool. Had lots of fun during Amazing Race here. And the second day was free time. I swam and played water basketball here with admin and HR. The went cycling with Fairuz. Didn't manage to go to spa as we had only half day for the secon day. 

The EEC team. We had a dance performance! :D

Everyone, before/after Amazing Race? I forgot. 

My team for Amazing Race. Missing Mohammed and Viviane. 

People who stayed overnight. Dinner party~~

December went to a really big and expensive trip to UK and Switzerland with KW. You will see it in another post, if I am hardworking enough to write a post, as it's going to be looonggg. ;)

Year 2020 have a not-so-good start. Grandma passed away, Wuhan coronavirus and Kobe Bryant passed away. Hopefully the rest of the year is going to be GOOD!!

Let's end this post with a happy and colourful picture and hope all is well for 2020!
Deepavali celebration. 

Sunday, 4 February 2018

最大最大的缺点

我这人儿啊,最大最大的缺点就是不敢把心里最真实的情绪、意愿表达出来。总是不敢面对最真实的意愿。这让我错失了许多东西,例如表白的时机。
也是造成我需要很久才能与一个人建立交心的关系,因为我很少与别人分享心里的想法,所以别人也很难捉摸我真实的个性。但一旦建立了那种关系,我可以很放纵地、不加思索地做我自己。
以这个缺点,何时呢,我才能找到我的灵魂伴侣?[就算没有,我也很庆幸找到了几位这样的朋友。:) ]
何时呢,我才能克服或者稍微减弱这个缺点?

但这缺点的好处是,我没那么冲动,因为要做什么,要说什么,永远都会先在我脑里回旋千百遍。

有一个很冲动的事情,最让我印象深刻。至今我仍在想,如果我选择了另一条路,不知现在的我会是怎样。。或许两条路的交叉点会是一样的,不过那一段时间所看到的风景肯定不一样。也庆幸我选择了这条路,虽然坎坷,虽然回想起来觉得做出来的成绩蛮失败的,不过。。也是人生中做过又冲动又尴尬的一件事。那就是大学第四年的毕业晚会了。不知那时何来的勇气,竟然担当起整个晚会的筹办主席。。也许我身边有可靠的战友吧。。来临的聚会中,一定要提起这件事,探讨一下各自当时的心情和现在的感想。

或许如果我人生中,有多点执行我的冲动,现在就会不一样了。

 但没必要后悔,反正时间不等人,与其浪费时间去后悔当初,不如好好利用当下,感受当下。。

Monday, 16 October 2017

心里的一颗石头,未了的心愿

第一刹那,在巴士站,深深地陷入了你会说话的眼睛
那泛着光又诚恳的眼神
如同告诉了我你所有的故事
好像能从你褐色的眼睛里看见了你从小到现在的故事
好像我们认识了很久一样
第一次对任何人有这种感觉

可是,一如往常懦弱的我
好想坐在你旁边
却选了你前面的座位
就这样错过了谈天的机会

后来好一段日子都没有接触
好朋友都有跟你同组 assignment
我却因为自己的原则而与友族同胞们一起
也因为忙活动而不把这事儿当一回事
(也许是我把忙当懦弱的借口)

直接过了大学三年
时间跳到了第四年

终于机会又来了!

选了一科极少数人拿的科目
你却刚好也一起选了!
可是你怎么坐得那么高那么远呢?
我选了中间的位置,一个人坐
也许如果坐在你旁边,我不会常常在课堂上睡觉。。

虽然拿到了你的电话号码
但是也只能哪天课堂取消时传讯息给你
懦弱的我

毕业晚会前
大家开开心心地练习跳舞
我那该死的害羞和懦弱
没有与异性练习
结果你伸出了手,问我要不要一起练习
我那一刻真该不假思索地立刻马上牵起你的手
(现在心里满满的后悔,虽然真不想承认后悔了)

好喜欢你
但你对我的感觉又是如何呢?
普通系友吗?
对我的印象如何?
书呆子?假正义?
还是也和我一样,在那第一刹那时,也被我眼睛迷住了?

毕业典礼后
当大家忙着拍照
有一股冲动把你拉到一旁
告诉你我的喜欢
就算你也有同感也好,或只是点点头也罢
至少我没有遗憾
但是这些终归脑海里的排演。。

毕业后大家各奔他乡
开始了职业生涯
一开始有股冲动
向你写信倾诉一切
但也终归想象

终于有个借口
让我联络你询问一些东西
但你普通地回答
也没多聊
我该把这当成 “你只是把我当普通朋友” 的提示吗
现在我们毕业两年了
这件事还是在我心里
一个搬不走的石头
这是我自己想象的喜欢吗?
是我自己的幻觉吗 ?
我自认根本不了解你
但通过几次聊天,也欣赏你对事情有自己的看法
别人说你邋遢,但那时候的我肯定比你更邋遢
看似稳重也有安全感

或许若不行动,我将错过了我的 soulmate 呢?
就算一见钟情不一定能走远
但至少曾经开始过
我该。。踏出那一步吗?
做不成情人,我们可以当朋友或笔友吗?

我该把这文寄给你吗
还是就让它默默地在这部落格里越埋越深?

我该突破自己,果断地做心里想做的事吗
还是一如往常懦弱的等,等待所谓的缘分?
(但心里清楚这是逃避,这是懦弱)

我该活在现在
做一个随心所欲的人
还是
就让它埋在过去
变成老来后悔的事呢

但是又好害怕知道答案。。。 

还是该厚着脸皮闯一闯呢?

Sunday, 18 June 2017

First 3 days...

I'm finally here, started working in an NGO. Well, the first 2 days, I really missed my ex-colleagues. Suddenly I was doubting myself, why had I left my old company, these are the hardships that I have cast upon myself. New environment, new system, new colleagues. The third day is better, because I know I will be seeing some of my ex-colleagues after work for karaoke session. Not sure about the coming days... Hope all is well...

Actually, it is just like working in a corporation. Maybe because I don't know the job scopes of other departments yet. But these 3 days made me come to reality that work is just work, we work to earn money to keep living. I finally understand why as we grow up, instead of colourful individuals, everyone starts to become the same colour. We started to see that dreams are nothing compare to making a living.

But is this what I want to become? Retaining my true self is hard, but I must try not to lose it. There are a few things that maybe I can suggest to them, such as recycling the stapler bullets, using recycled paper for labeling. Yes, I must do it! Hoping to be myself instead of conforming to the system. Some of my friends are doing things that they like, persevering in things that they believe in, I should look up to their bravery and confidence. I can do it too!!!

DeeJay 加油,加油,加油!!!
勿忘初心!!<3

Sunday, 14 May 2017

Working for an NGO?

Just now before signing in, I was looking at my previous post. Coincidently, the last sentence is about working for an NGO!

Well, this post is the sequel!

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So, I have applied and interviewed for a job in NGO, but maybe at that time of application, I might not have made up my mind fully to accept the job if I get the offer. I was thinking, just try for it, and if I don't get it, I can stay at my current job. It's just as if to satisfy myself that I have tried to achieve what I want.

However, I got it! Now, here comes all the conflict.

Many people advise me not to take this road, that it has no future in terms of career progression and also money. There are also people saying that volunteering for the NGO and actually working for it is a different thing. I might see and know things that I don't like.

Well, it's hard to stay firm to my decision. I have to keep reminding myself of my initial intention of working for an NGO. Besides the sense of purpose, there is also transport factor, I would like to be independent and have authority in managing my own life, instead of needing to accommodate with the whole family regarding the schedules every day. And I also admire those who work passionately in their job, even though their job is not something big (example: the guy at Restoran Wah Chai - he runs around, serving all customers, and even remembers what is your preference of sauces).

My ambition may not be that big, so it's hard convincing other people about it. I understand that people will always aim for higher, and it's kind of our responsibility to make our parents proud. But... Sometimes, it is hard to convince my own heart.

But the future is unpredictable. I might not like the organisation at all. I might just jump out from it later. But I tell myself that at least I can get to see the operation of an NGO, and gain some communication skills while working in an international environment. Maybe, I will get to have other job scopes, and the annual increment is not so bad? However, all these reasons may not be solid enough to others.

Why must everyone have the thinking that you have to move to a higher position with better pay? It's hard to go against the norm of the society...

But since I have tendered my resignation letter, it is like a one-way ticket for me. I know I can still say no to the new company and stay in my current one, but I'm not the kind who break promises. Anyhow, since things have progressed until here, just go on with it. Who knows, it might bring something good to me. Believing in the law of attraction, I really landed a job with an NGO; Maybe with my goal of working happily and contributing in an NGO, it can really happen to me in the future.

Let's wait for the next sequel after I have started working in the NGO!

Saturday, 18 February 2017

I'm the real me

Yeah, I'm slow to warm up to people.
Seeing others who can talk naturally with people, who always can bring up topic when with strangers, I envy them. Meanwhile, I am wary with strangers and usually don't reveal myself much. By strangers, it can also be someone I see every day but don't have much interaction.

Yeah, I may be an over-positive person.
I always look at the positive side of a person, believing that every person has a Buddha inside the heart. I try to put myself in their shoes, thinking from their point of view, considering their circumstances. (Sometimes I wonder, is this considered as helping them to find an excuse for some "unacceptable" behaviour? ("Unacceptable" is "" because everyone's interpretation of unacceptable is different. What I think is unacceptable may be acceptable to others) )

But then, people always ask:
Why are you so 慢热? (which means slow to warm up to people)
Why are you so positive and trusting?

DON'T YOU PEOPLE KNOW THAT THIS TWO IS A CONTRADICTING BEHAVIOUR??!!!!
HOW CAN I BE VERY AMIABLE AND SOCIABLE WHILE BEING CAUTIOUS ABOUT PEOPLE AND ALWAYS THINKING ABOUT THE NEGATIVE SIDE OF PEOPLE??!!!
ISN'T THIS CALLED A PRETENTIOUS PEOPLE??

Well, I know I also a contradictory person, being positive and trusting, yet slow to warm up to people. But then, this is because I know that we can't be friends with everyone. Humans are meant to be made up of many, many, many circles of people who can connect with each other. Why should I force myself to be so many versions of me just to fit in every circle??!!!

For me, I'm more comfortable of being a positive and trusting yet 慢热 person.
Instead of being a pretentious person, acting friendly to everyone but in the mind, keep thinking bad about everyone. Life is already so hard, why make it harder for yourself by having all those negative thoughts in your mind????

By the way, where can I find a job where everyone is just concentrating about how to make the organisation better or how to improve work flow? I'm fed up of working where people are calculative of any extra work load. (YOU DON'T WANT TO TAKE UP EXTRA WORK LOAD, BUT THEN WHEN SOMEONE IS WILLING TO DO IT AND THE BOSS IS WILLING TO GIVE MORE RESPONSIBILITY TO THIS PERSON, YOU FEEL JEALOUS AND SAY THAT THE BOSS IS PRACTISING FAVOURITISM!!!)
I'm thinking, is working in an NGO will have lesser chance of meeting such people?


DeeJay thinks it's really time to change job...

Saturday, 22 October 2016

《微微一笑很倾城》·观后感

感触最深的,是当微微和二喜发生矛盾,微微 “离家出走” 的那一刻。。

其实真的觉得,每个人都有各自的特长和缺点。一班固定的朋友圈当中,可能确实会有几个比较出众,但如果是真心把对方当成朋友的,就肯定不会去介意、去比较的。那点小事,根本都不会放在眼里,连在脑海里闪过的机会都没有。为什么呢?因为真是好朋友的话,会了解对方哪里不好,可以很轻松自在地互相调侃,就算是优点也好,也会特地酸一下他们。

还好微微和二喜和好了。经得起风波的友情,必定会更加坚固。看她们恢复以前互相调侃的关系,感觉真的非常好啊!好朋友,是什么?就是拿来互相调侃的嘛,生活乐趣啊~

想对那些感觉朋友比自己优秀的人说:
其实优秀的他,是非常珍惜及欣慰有你这样的朋友的。能够自由自在地相处,畅所欲言。你也有他没有的优点,互相弥补、互相学习,把对方当成进步的榜样,然后大家一起进步,不是很好吗?

 想对那些被认为是比较优秀的人说:
不要觉得自己很孤单,一定会有那么几个真心待你的朋友。只要谦虚,自己真心待人,过得了自己的良心,日久见人心,一定会找到那一班朋友的。

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至于肖奈和微微的感情戏呢。。哎,偶像剧,真的是害了许多人对爱情的憧憬啊。。现实生活哪有那么美好,大家多多少少都会有一些需要磨合的地方的。要拿一盆冷水淋自己一下,提醒自己:“清醒吧,别中了偶像剧的毒啊!!” (不果还真是挺浪漫的,不禁会幻想一下自己会是通过怎样的方式认识我的那另一半呢?XD)

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孟逸然、娜娜、爱香奈儿, 小雨妖妖等等那一半女生呢。。看多了,真是怕会被她们影响呢。。还是远离为妙啊。。 真是怕自己会被他们影响,以后在生活里变成 “以小人之心度君子之腹” 的人。要训练自己成为不八卦,守口如瓶的人,真的需要很强的自制能力。


好久没有用华语写作了。看了 《微微一笑》,提醒了我,华语是可以如此地厉害,可以 “温柔” 地 “杀” 了人,也可以委婉地替人解围。(就像肖奈在舞会时跟风腾的董事长说的那段话,仔细一听,才听出里面的含义。)
华文真是深奥啊,一辈子都学不完的。要练一练了,以免生疏。